https://vadavaka.com/forums/ Thu, 16 Apr 2026 07:29:20 +0000 MyBB https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=4790 Sun, 13 Aug 2006 14:27:54 +0000 chochochum]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=4790
All that we had
Was never so sad
untill you tore me and ignored me,
everthing to distort me

Time passed, while my feelings were still up for chance
I took you back on the high track hoping to get you back
liar, liar, liar
You say you wanted to feel wanted.
I hope your haunted, By 3 weeks with a few messed up drinks
That made you redefine what it ment to give it up
As im shattered by the thought, I'm glad i didn't get caught
because i thought,
after 18 months it would mean something, not a few beer then a bed

Sleepless nights, train wreck sights
but you dont see... me

a year and 6 month, passion and love
compromised.
I hope its for you, not because its easiest route
One day made you change, 3 made you fade
But did it fade? or were you made,
his ghost surround you and slade

you said you loved me, and made the right choice..
you said you missed kissing me,
But maybe you would rather miss me..

Now i'm stuck dreaming..
waking up crying and screaming
All of it streaming through my mind without meaning
Once they run out, ill shout and run free from your endless greed

The thing ill miss the most are
the early morning bus rides with locked lips
that made the trips seem just like minutes

But ya' know what?
thats ok,
I'm positive your not the only one that can hold me

Your choice was toiled,
so i made it uncoil
your trite antics, need to be unveiled

What have i learned from you?
Sun glasses are for shame not the sun
but if you didnt hide,
would i see what i want
or a stone portrait tearless, careless and not fought


Although i wish you were who you
once were, who you still may be,
the pain along with your claims died long ago

now who will be the ghost?

I hope you sit near a shaded telephone post
and look at the shooting star and remember what
you wished for, because that soul is caliced and
cleaned from your so called blissful heart

What hurts the most is i could pain forever
and you could never bother to care
but im recovering, and
your souless stature won't remain in rapture
and when it falls, who will be there to stand you tall
But because of what i did, i will be too tall to reach,
and maybe then will you realize...

And all these words i write..
I dont think you will even take the time to take a sight..]]>
All that we had
Was never so sad
untill you tore me and ignored me,
everthing to distort me

Time passed, while my feelings were still up for chance
I took you back on the high track hoping to get you back
liar, liar, liar
You say you wanted to feel wanted.
I hope your haunted, By 3 weeks with a few messed up drinks
That made you redefine what it ment to give it up
As im shattered by the thought, I'm glad i didn't get caught
because i thought,
after 18 months it would mean something, not a few beer then a bed

Sleepless nights, train wreck sights
but you dont see... me

a year and 6 month, passion and love
compromised.
I hope its for you, not because its easiest route
One day made you change, 3 made you fade
But did it fade? or were you made,
his ghost surround you and slade

you said you loved me, and made the right choice..
you said you missed kissing me,
But maybe you would rather miss me..

Now i'm stuck dreaming..
waking up crying and screaming
All of it streaming through my mind without meaning
Once they run out, ill shout and run free from your endless greed

The thing ill miss the most are
the early morning bus rides with locked lips
that made the trips seem just like minutes

But ya' know what?
thats ok,
I'm positive your not the only one that can hold me

Your choice was toiled,
so i made it uncoil
your trite antics, need to be unveiled

What have i learned from you?
Sun glasses are for shame not the sun
but if you didnt hide,
would i see what i want
or a stone portrait tearless, careless and not fought


Although i wish you were who you
once were, who you still may be,
the pain along with your claims died long ago

now who will be the ghost?

I hope you sit near a shaded telephone post
and look at the shooting star and remember what
you wished for, because that soul is caliced and
cleaned from your so called blissful heart

What hurts the most is i could pain forever
and you could never bother to care
but im recovering, and
your souless stature won't remain in rapture
and when it falls, who will be there to stand you tall
But because of what i did, i will be too tall to reach,
and maybe then will you realize...

And all these words i write..
I dont think you will even take the time to take a sight..]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=4414 Wed, 16 Nov 2005 03:38:06 +0000 Slasher186]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=4414 The wind blows, the leaves fall
The crunch of leaves beneath your feet, I can't help but feel they're victims all
The chilly air and the chimney smoke
The wind whispers without note
The feeling of feathers, the wind pushes you as if there's something to gain
This brings forth a feeling I cannot evoke
For fall touches me deeply in a way I can not explain
As if looking directly into your lover’s eyes
It can’t but hurt to say “Good-bye.”

We are willing for any revision you wish to make.]]> The wind blows, the leaves fall
The crunch of leaves beneath your feet, I can't help but feel they're victims all
The chilly air and the chimney smoke
The wind whispers without note
The feeling of feathers, the wind pushes you as if there's something to gain
This brings forth a feeling I cannot evoke
For fall touches me deeply in a way I can not explain
As if looking directly into your lover’s eyes
It can’t but hurt to say “Good-bye.”

We are willing for any revision you wish to make.]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=4359 Wed, 26 Oct 2005 00:35:30 +0000 Slasher186]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=4359 A Tree.
A tree,
So sweet, so mellow, and often bland
Can sometimes become a nuisance and get out of hand
With leaves blowing here and pines falling there
It’s a wonder so many people seem to lovingly care
About a tree,
That is said to be so harsh with its brutal winds
What with knocking things around, tearing things apart, but I guess it all depends
On a tree,
That gets in the way with its enormous roots breaking things down
And jamming up the earth while we all hang around
A tree,
That causes more pain than pleasure
But just for good measure
Let's look at the good and the bad
All of the aspects which can make one go mad
Oh wait what was it that we need in order to breathe?
Oh yeah… A tree ]]> A Tree.
A tree,
So sweet, so mellow, and often bland
Can sometimes become a nuisance and get out of hand
With leaves blowing here and pines falling there
It’s a wonder so many people seem to lovingly care
About a tree,
That is said to be so harsh with its brutal winds
What with knocking things around, tearing things apart, but I guess it all depends
On a tree,
That gets in the way with its enormous roots breaking things down
And jamming up the earth while we all hang around
A tree,
That causes more pain than pleasure
But just for good measure
Let's look at the good and the bad
All of the aspects which can make one go mad
Oh wait what was it that we need in order to breathe?
Oh yeah… A tree ]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3783 Mon, 06 Dec 2004 11:26:45 +0000 FreeFall]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3783 The past, or the future, they're the same. Time can't be altered, all our thoughts and feelings, those are personal. You can see what you want, think what you want. And you don't know what you've lost until it really hits you. It's been a year since the year before it and before it. But this time, this time is different.
The heart, the central muscle in the body, also a symbol for love. this same heart, cracked in two, also a symbol for pain. Anyone who's worn a bandage knows they can't stay forever, a temporary solution. A solution none the less. But one day you find yourself, lying on the bathroom floor. Five drops, that's how much i cried. At least two more while writing this.
A conclusion, an absolution, that's all I want. But what i need is a completely different monster. It has been at least 3 years now, winter being the worst of the seasons, and as luck would have it, she's coming back in december. Another cheerful christmas. I know it's my fault, I can see the blame. And all this, what I'm left with, it's empty. But what isn't. She is, lord knows I am. And yet, I've seen my chances, all too many given and all too many lost.
Dreams are dreams. All my hopes and wishes are dreams. And all that could've been are dreams. In dreams, anything can happen, but what if those dreams never come?]]> The past, or the future, they're the same. Time can't be altered, all our thoughts and feelings, those are personal. You can see what you want, think what you want. And you don't know what you've lost until it really hits you. It's been a year since the year before it and before it. But this time, this time is different.
The heart, the central muscle in the body, also a symbol for love. this same heart, cracked in two, also a symbol for pain. Anyone who's worn a bandage knows they can't stay forever, a temporary solution. A solution none the less. But one day you find yourself, lying on the bathroom floor. Five drops, that's how much i cried. At least two more while writing this.
A conclusion, an absolution, that's all I want. But what i need is a completely different monster. It has been at least 3 years now, winter being the worst of the seasons, and as luck would have it, she's coming back in december. Another cheerful christmas. I know it's my fault, I can see the blame. And all this, what I'm left with, it's empty. But what isn't. She is, lord knows I am. And yet, I've seen my chances, all too many given and all too many lost.
Dreams are dreams. All my hopes and wishes are dreams. And all that could've been are dreams. In dreams, anything can happen, but what if those dreams never come?]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3646 Sat, 04 Sep 2004 12:16:24 +0000 FreeFall]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3646 creating consequence to cross the line
in the depths of my own self and soul
Form these walls and watch them grow
Just to bring it down

Step back and feel this will
to see outside, erase that line
regressing thoughts in fleeting time
Temp it, feed it, let it fill

This body holding, showing me
There's more than this world to see
Those four walls keep eyes blind
Deconstruct them to unbind
Just to seal up again]]> creating consequence to cross the line
in the depths of my own self and soul
Form these walls and watch them grow
Just to bring it down

Step back and feel this will
to see outside, erase that line
regressing thoughts in fleeting time
Temp it, feed it, let it fill

This body holding, showing me
There's more than this world to see
Those four walls keep eyes blind
Deconstruct them to unbind
Just to seal up again]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3618 Wed, 18 Aug 2004 19:55:32 +0000 Shalk]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3618
how much longer
shall i mourn for my mistakes
a daily ritual in which
i lamentate

living our life
through a fence
the razors and barb
run through my flesh

the halo of my blood
which the ground now wears
shall await the generations
for a life of despair

your body is laid
on the mellow ground
cold and white, overturing
my company with your sleep
draw i shall, a wreath with
blood stained fingers
a laurel of water,
so deep

mist ridden coldness
lingeres around
drives us into cravings
of the sun
no warmth or light
just darkness of night

as fire into winds of north
we are denied and broken
of force

sleepless, painless
shall i stride
guard and watch your soul
drink your enemies blood
as red wine

await the next world
for your awakening

© Noam]]>
how much longer
shall i mourn for my mistakes
a daily ritual in which
i lamentate

living our life
through a fence
the razors and barb
run through my flesh

the halo of my blood
which the ground now wears
shall await the generations
for a life of despair

your body is laid
on the mellow ground
cold and white, overturing
my company with your sleep
draw i shall, a wreath with
blood stained fingers
a laurel of water,
so deep

mist ridden coldness
lingeres around
drives us into cravings
of the sun
no warmth or light
just darkness of night

as fire into winds of north
we are denied and broken
of force

sleepless, painless
shall i stride
guard and watch your soul
drink your enemies blood
as red wine

await the next world
for your awakening

© Noam]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3560 Tue, 13 Jul 2004 09:20:55 +0000 Annatar]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3560 just what it takes to cloud my eyes
i want to love, i want to care
i want to pass around and share

i think i just need to be hugged
to snuggle up upon a rug
or sit and watch the world go by
and talk to someone while i cry

the answer is so far yet near
and suddenly i do not fear
there is an end, an evermore
so i pick myself
back off the floor




Yes i know its short and trite, but hey??? i dont care]]> just what it takes to cloud my eyes
i want to love, i want to care
i want to pass around and share

i think i just need to be hugged
to snuggle up upon a rug
or sit and watch the world go by
and talk to someone while i cry

the answer is so far yet near
and suddenly i do not fear
there is an end, an evermore
so i pick myself
back off the floor




Yes i know its short and trite, but hey??? i dont care]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3452 Tue, 11 May 2004 07:19:09 +0000 FreeFall]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3452 labelled, stickered, and sold
The only way that it reads me
is the only way that i'm told

Ya, there's a mouse in my stomach
and he's singing strong
It's got my head spinning
and my mind is gone

He's laying on his back
and so am I
I'm gonna wash this back
this dirty cry
It's gonna fight back
and so am I
But i'm gonna wash this back
while it sings it's dirty songs

With this last sip there's a waterfall
Drowning my day
And the people who surround me
aren't here to stay
but hell, give me reason
why should they?
and hell. give me a reason
to get through with this day





it's actually a song I wrote. . it continues a bit basically repeating 1 or 2 of the verses with modifications, but i decided to just write out the basis. . .I'll give you a hint. I wrote it while I was drunk (ie. tonight. . I planned out the instrumental structure of it all, I just don't feel like posting a couple pages of text)]]> labelled, stickered, and sold
The only way that it reads me
is the only way that i'm told

Ya, there's a mouse in my stomach
and he's singing strong
It's got my head spinning
and my mind is gone

He's laying on his back
and so am I
I'm gonna wash this back
this dirty cry
It's gonna fight back
and so am I
But i'm gonna wash this back
while it sings it's dirty songs

With this last sip there's a waterfall
Drowning my day
And the people who surround me
aren't here to stay
but hell, give me reason
why should they?
and hell. give me a reason
to get through with this day





it's actually a song I wrote. . it continues a bit basically repeating 1 or 2 of the verses with modifications, but i decided to just write out the basis. . .I'll give you a hint. I wrote it while I was drunk (ie. tonight. . I planned out the instrumental structure of it all, I just don't feel like posting a couple pages of text)]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1470 Thu, 06 May 2004 12:52:16 +0000 Annatar]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1470 I dont enjoy making your life any worse
I like you a lot and we get on just fine
but i think we just came to the end of the line
cos i just cant love you, so now i must hide
im sorry so sorry, believe me i tried
but its just this block that i cannot get through
Know that it dont mean that i dont respect you
Im glad that it started and sad that it ends
So please, dear shona, can we still be friends?



i hate dumping people. Even when we havent been together for very long.]]> I dont enjoy making your life any worse
I like you a lot and we get on just fine
but i think we just came to the end of the line
cos i just cant love you, so now i must hide
im sorry so sorry, believe me i tried
but its just this block that i cannot get through
Know that it dont mean that i dont respect you
Im glad that it started and sad that it ends
So please, dear shona, can we still be friends?



i hate dumping people. Even when we havent been together for very long.]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3430 Thu, 29 Apr 2004 02:02:02 +0000 Turtle]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=3430
It seems like 100 years,
Of guilt built up.
Releasing this,
Will be my final saying.

I'm sorry for what I've done,
I'm sorry for what I've not begun,
For this I must say,
Before I give up the ghost,
and pass away.

If I shall go before saying goodbye,
remember that I,
Will always love you,
and you see you once again.

Closing my eyes,
Saying goodnight,
for the rest of time,
Until we're joined again.
Being the angel you are,
I'll see you in Heaven.]]>
It seems like 100 years,
Of guilt built up.
Releasing this,
Will be my final saying.

I'm sorry for what I've done,
I'm sorry for what I've not begun,
For this I must say,
Before I give up the ghost,
and pass away.

If I shall go before saying goodbye,
remember that I,
Will always love you,
and you see you once again.

Closing my eyes,
Saying goodnight,
for the rest of time,
Until we're joined again.
Being the angel you are,
I'll see you in Heaven.]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1440 Wed, 28 Apr 2004 02:08:43 +0000 Squish]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1440
Time flies when all your fed is lies
never relent try to repent
you know you never can
always want to be something
never will with out the will
found in a pool face first lyin on the ground
dogs from the pound knawin on your shoe
till your found dead on the ground
never amounted to more than the money at the undertakers
left in the cold of the alley
life savins spent in bottles of glass corodid by the alcohol in them
parents tried and tried to get you outta slump
but you decided to die
talent wasted worse than talent never had
tryin to decide what to do with yourself
all you can think of is the 40 oz of freedom in the bag in your hand

By Jon

what you think?]]>
Time flies when all your fed is lies
never relent try to repent
you know you never can
always want to be something
never will with out the will
found in a pool face first lyin on the ground
dogs from the pound knawin on your shoe
till your found dead on the ground
never amounted to more than the money at the undertakers
left in the cold of the alley
life savins spent in bottles of glass corodid by the alcohol in them
parents tried and tried to get you outta slump
but you decided to die
talent wasted worse than talent never had
tryin to decide what to do with yourself
all you can think of is the 40 oz of freedom in the bag in your hand

By Jon

what you think?]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1431 Sun, 25 Apr 2004 09:37:30 +0000 FreeFall]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1431 Offer your soul
Believe without a reason
A reason within your belief

You've found your light and I've found mine
And I'll keep it until the end. . .end

Follow along this dusty road
Lurking behind this shadow before me
A shadow cast by light
My light, my soul, my own

A hand reaches down
Grabs you and pulls
Stretching you thin

The hand that once defeated you
It's now there to hold you up
The hand which once crushed you
It's now there to push you down

I've found my light now find your own
And keep it to the end. . .end

One light, one hope, and one desire
Eclipsed by one being and one hole
Where's your torch?
Where's your bridge?

Watch the flame
Watch it burn
Watch this world turn to dust

This dusty road on which I walk
This bridge of which will hold me up
That light of your's, shattering moons
And the hand you hold, holds you up no more

I've found my light and you've found your own
And we each keep our own until the end. . .end]]> Offer your soul
Believe without a reason
A reason within your belief

You've found your light and I've found mine
And I'll keep it until the end. . .end

Follow along this dusty road
Lurking behind this shadow before me
A shadow cast by light
My light, my soul, my own

A hand reaches down
Grabs you and pulls
Stretching you thin

The hand that once defeated you
It's now there to hold you up
The hand which once crushed you
It's now there to push you down

I've found my light now find your own
And keep it to the end. . .end

One light, one hope, and one desire
Eclipsed by one being and one hole
Where's your torch?
Where's your bridge?

Watch the flame
Watch it burn
Watch this world turn to dust

This dusty road on which I walk
This bridge of which will hold me up
That light of your's, shattering moons
And the hand you hold, holds you up no more

I've found my light and you've found your own
And we each keep our own until the end. . .end]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1339 Fri, 23 Apr 2004 03:19:40 +0000 Wanksta]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1339
Bones are breaking inside,
Everyday that passes by.
There is not a moment I don't think about you,
and the kindness you have shown to me.
You were there to make me smile
When others would only laugh at me.
You would take the time to say hi to me
When I was feeling lonely.


I can’t go on,
The thorns are driven too deep inside.
I wish you could see me as I see you.
But there is nothing, nothing left to say,
As I slowly piece by piece come apart,
And slowly fade away.



I was thinking about two people when i was writing this...
1)DragonLady
2)Gianna (A good friend of mine)]]>
Bones are breaking inside,
Everyday that passes by.
There is not a moment I don't think about you,
and the kindness you have shown to me.
You were there to make me smile
When others would only laugh at me.
You would take the time to say hi to me
When I was feeling lonely.


I can’t go on,
The thorns are driven too deep inside.
I wish you could see me as I see you.
But there is nothing, nothing left to say,
As I slowly piece by piece come apart,
And slowly fade away.



I was thinking about two people when i was writing this...
1)DragonLady
2)Gianna (A good friend of mine)]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1406 Mon, 19 Apr 2004 11:41:27 +0000 Annatar]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1406
anyways, thought id put one of my quicky poems here. Its meant to be more like a short song but nvm, ill find some real poetry of mine at some point nd post it.

Forget about tomorrow
cos tommorow never comes
If you think that it will someday
then your not the only one
you can tell me to be happy
but im sticking to my guns
dont talk about tomorrow
cos tomorrow never comes.


Short nd to the pointless. Actually think ill write some more of my stuff down, its not like im short of time right now.
hmmm its all really depressive... been a while since i wrote any. Ah well, heres one called reflection

Light creeping across the mirror
No more phosphorescent glimmer
Slowly ideas start to shimmer
Life returns to predawns corpse

Life, that crawling longshot gamble
Useless legs begin to shamble
Mistakes, mind begins to ramble
Self-doubt grows inside his head

That moment, what has he become?
Will thought and action soon be one?
face these facts, judgement's begun
but what, my god, what must be done?

But no quick answers come to him
His body's not so full of vim
Guilt grows quickly and settles in
Nothing he could change here now

No options which arent old as night
The remedy is out of sight
Not even great Khan had the might
To stop his self destruction.

Mirror, by the sun's direction
Shows the doom in my reflection
Born of my self-vivisection
Yet motion is beyond me.]]>
anyways, thought id put one of my quicky poems here. Its meant to be more like a short song but nvm, ill find some real poetry of mine at some point nd post it.

Forget about tomorrow
cos tommorow never comes
If you think that it will someday
then your not the only one
you can tell me to be happy
but im sticking to my guns
dont talk about tomorrow
cos tomorrow never comes.


Short nd to the pointless. Actually think ill write some more of my stuff down, its not like im short of time right now.
hmmm its all really depressive... been a while since i wrote any. Ah well, heres one called reflection

Light creeping across the mirror
No more phosphorescent glimmer
Slowly ideas start to shimmer
Life returns to predawns corpse

Life, that crawling longshot gamble
Useless legs begin to shamble
Mistakes, mind begins to ramble
Self-doubt grows inside his head

That moment, what has he become?
Will thought and action soon be one?
face these facts, judgement's begun
but what, my god, what must be done?

But no quick answers come to him
His body's not so full of vim
Guilt grows quickly and settles in
Nothing he could change here now

No options which arent old as night
The remedy is out of sight
Not even great Khan had the might
To stop his self destruction.

Mirror, by the sun's direction
Shows the doom in my reflection
Born of my self-vivisection
Yet motion is beyond me.]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1356 Mon, 05 Apr 2004 07:03:28 +0000 FreeFall]]> https://vadavaka.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=1356 when time's not near
and everything it brings is accompanied by fear

I just want an answer
just need a reason
something to believe in
and something to never let go

When everything is vacant and all I'm left with
Is empty thoughts and empty feelings
And all I ever hear is meaningless

They say they care, they say they know
Nothing's real nothings true and nothings ever going to be
Life is stuck in an ever falling spiral

If I could just rise up
Climb up
Reach up above everything here

If life could take a turn
bend around the wind and find what I need
If, if, if
why, why, why

Why do I bother asking
When every answer is another question
Why do I bother searching for somethintg
when all I'll get is emptiness and souless notions

If I could just be happy with what's given
If I could just move on from the shit that's driven
Deep into the core of everything I know
Everything would be fine

And everything could move on at last...



ugh. . .alcohol isn't good for me . .<_<]]> when time's not near
and everything it brings is accompanied by fear

I just want an answer
just need a reason
something to believe in
and something to never let go

When everything is vacant and all I'm left with
Is empty thoughts and empty feelings
And all I ever hear is meaningless

They say they care, they say they know
Nothing's real nothings true and nothings ever going to be
Life is stuck in an ever falling spiral

If I could just rise up
Climb up
Reach up above everything here

If life could take a turn
bend around the wind and find what I need
If, if, if
why, why, why

Why do I bother asking
When every answer is another question
Why do I bother searching for somethintg
when all I'll get is emptiness and souless notions

If I could just be happy with what's given
If I could just move on from the shit that's driven
Deep into the core of everything I know
Everything would be fine

And everything could move on at last...



ugh. . .alcohol isn't good for me . .<_<]]>