Song - "Heart in Hand"

[SoulEvan]

The sky must be falling, I'm starting to write songs again.

Wrote this a couple hours ago. Didn't take me too long.


"Heart in Hand"

Freedom like the dead, as if I don't know what I've said,
Being dragged behind the chariot just to live the life I've led,
This prenumbra of belief, fear as you pull me from my sheath,
Free subjugated, discombobulated mind that must be me.

You've come to free me from this hell, destroy this ethereal cell,
You've come to build the man that had been me who'd crawled back in his shell,
You've come to clear the blood-stained snow, open my closed eyes and show
Me what it really means to bleed and what it really means to glow.

Is this - what it's like - to feel,
Cause I can't - seem to see - what's real,
Is this - what it's like - to pray,
Cause I can't - seem to wake - everyday.

Feelings full of dread, as I look down at the bed,
Feel the rythm being lost in me, the blood that's being spent,
See the pen and paper there, words that stab right to my soul,
See the smoke rise from my hand, feel the void that fills my whole,

You've come to free me from this hell, destroy this ethereal cell,
You've come to build the man that had been me who'd crawled back in his shell,
You've come to clear the blood-stained snow, open my closed eyes and show -
Me what it really means to bleed and what it really means to glow.

Is this - what it's like - to feel,
Cause I can't - seem to see - what's real,
Is this - what it's like - to pray,
Cause I can't - seem to wake - everyday.

Is this - what it's like - to bleed,
Cause I think - I now know - what I need,
I know what it's like to bleed,
So don't leave. Please don't leave.

[Guest]

that speaks volumes to me.

[SoulEvan]

sorry, my sarcasm detector is powered down right now. hahah

but if you're serious, then how so? I'd love to hear interpretations from the PoV of others.

[Guest]

Over all it documents the expenditure of sweat blood and pain to move through things in life, and that other bits come along to help out. Sometimes things can get so out of hand though, that it's hard to believe that things are really going the way they are.

Also, it gives way to a general overtone that the future is unknown, and that causes problems as it becomes difficult to know whether tomorrow is worth it, today.

[SoulEvan]

I really like your interpretation. :thumb:

Some symbolism in there.

Originally I wrote it as a message of being torn between two minds. Normality and the "chariot." Mechanical simplicity and emotionless is the ethereal entity created by the person to do everything in his power to keep himself airless underwater, so to speak. Describes the sudden emotion of horror that overcomes the separate entity when it causes the person to take his own life, because once the person is gone, so is the entity.

In a nutshell, the message is that a person of self-conflict must combine his personas, no matter how different they are, in order to move on with life.

Or rather, your heart is in your own hands. ;)