11-10-2003, 11:37 PM
A week prior to my banning, I went through a number of personal problems. 1. Had to switch schools. 2. Brother moves to Japan. 3. Wreck my car and almost die, losing 50% of the nerve fealings in the right side of my face. 4. Dog dies. 5. Girl friend cheats on me, so i break up with her.
Now, im not trying, i repeat, not trying at all to tap into the sympathy box, but I feal this might help some people understand why I was "two faced". Jabba, I can understand what you mean now. I remember, as will most of you hopefully, that i was just a friendly little stoned hippy in ricochet. I tried to be polite, always said hello, goodbye, good game, My Fault (for blocking) etc. I didnt shun newbies, but tried to help them when they asked the same rediculous questions over and over again. However during this week where I endured numerous personal difficulties, including paying $500 dollars in fines due to a car wreck, I was in a state of mental anguish to say. I was rubbed the wrong way by admins, who for some reason or another, decided to kick or temp ban me. They reserve the right to do this, but I did not know that. So how did I handle this? Forget the peacefull old ThisShitsTrippy, I went into berserker mode, throwing the most vile and hatefull messages at people that I could think of at the moment, where I was strongly absorbed in a high level of cocaine. Yes I acted the fool, Yes I sincerely apologise to those who recieved these messages as they were uncalled for. Private talking in a mature fashion would have been the Trippy thing to do. The regrets are all on my side here honestly, and im not going to allow myself to be provoked by people who did not accept my first appology. Again, while i do not feal comfortable revealing these things as they are extremely personal and nerve wracking, it might be for the better so that some of you can see why I went from calm and peacefull to utterly insane. At first I did not understand Jabba's Two Faced theory, but now I do. Again, I only ask for understanding here. Anyone feal free to reply to this, but please do not try to provoke me by calling me a crybaby or what not, Im just trying to give a more in-depth explanation that I did not feal comfortable revealing until now. And by all means, my mood has changed greatly. Provoke me to your fullest extent, I will no longer sink down to those levels. I am not a religious man, but sin begets sin, and the lone sheep is surrounded by wolves. Understanding is the first step back into tranquility.
-Peace and Love always to those who care,
--Trippy.
Now, im not trying, i repeat, not trying at all to tap into the sympathy box, but I feal this might help some people understand why I was "two faced". Jabba, I can understand what you mean now. I remember, as will most of you hopefully, that i was just a friendly little stoned hippy in ricochet. I tried to be polite, always said hello, goodbye, good game, My Fault (for blocking) etc. I didnt shun newbies, but tried to help them when they asked the same rediculous questions over and over again. However during this week where I endured numerous personal difficulties, including paying $500 dollars in fines due to a car wreck, I was in a state of mental anguish to say. I was rubbed the wrong way by admins, who for some reason or another, decided to kick or temp ban me. They reserve the right to do this, but I did not know that. So how did I handle this? Forget the peacefull old ThisShitsTrippy, I went into berserker mode, throwing the most vile and hatefull messages at people that I could think of at the moment, where I was strongly absorbed in a high level of cocaine. Yes I acted the fool, Yes I sincerely apologise to those who recieved these messages as they were uncalled for. Private talking in a mature fashion would have been the Trippy thing to do. The regrets are all on my side here honestly, and im not going to allow myself to be provoked by people who did not accept my first appology. Again, while i do not feal comfortable revealing these things as they are extremely personal and nerve wracking, it might be for the better so that some of you can see why I went from calm and peacefull to utterly insane. At first I did not understand Jabba's Two Faced theory, but now I do. Again, I only ask for understanding here. Anyone feal free to reply to this, but please do not try to provoke me by calling me a crybaby or what not, Im just trying to give a more in-depth explanation that I did not feal comfortable revealing until now. And by all means, my mood has changed greatly. Provoke me to your fullest extent, I will no longer sink down to those levels. I am not a religious man, but sin begets sin, and the lone sheep is surrounded by wolves. Understanding is the first step back into tranquility.
-Peace and Love always to those who care,
--Trippy.