05-13-2003, 07:51 AM
None of you ever did anything, and I don't quite know why I do this. Nothing in particular ever really sets me off...it's like a wave hits me and I just don't want to exist anymore. I believe yesterday was the only time I've ever truly felt what it's like to be broken and helpless, and I bent under the pressure a little further than I usually do. I can't explain what it felt like, but it made me want to cry for everyone on this forsaken planet until I couldn't anymore; close my eyes and never open them again.
I apologize to everyone I insult or lash out at during my "trance." I really can't explain it, it's like I start bending under the pressure and I change into this devil or whatever. And, all I have for anyone is malevolence.
I apologize to everyone I insult or lash out at during my "trance." I really can't explain it, it's like I start bending under the pressure and I change into this devil or whatever. And, all I have for anyone is malevolence.