07-15-2003, 05:21 AM
man, scrye, i identify w/ you a lot....we are in that zone where heavy-smokers scoff at us (because we apparently don't smoke enough to identify w/ them) and non-smokers demonize us because we seem to smoke like chiminies. we know we have a problem and we know we are addicted and that's the truth.
i try to hide my smoking from a lot of people...especially my parents. i feel embaressed when a professor or girl that i'm interested in catches me in "the act". when i come home, i quickly run up to my bathroom to change shirts, wash my hands, lips and brush my teeth. it's been going on for so long, it's become the daily routine. i don't want to lie, but i really don't want to dissapoint the people that love me and trust me to make good decisions.
i try to hide my smoking from a lot of people...especially my parents. i feel embaressed when a professor or girl that i'm interested in catches me in "the act". when i come home, i quickly run up to my bathroom to change shirts, wash my hands, lips and brush my teeth. it's been going on for so long, it's become the daily routine. i don't want to lie, but i really don't want to dissapoint the people that love me and trust me to make good decisions.